[WOW. Kaoru will break this knife on purpose, go away.]

I suppose that would make sense... Being unable to say something can be an awful feeling. At the very least, it's good that you're able to speak your mind now, correct?

[Even if Okita's dead by now, oops!! Or dead in Yamato's time, anyway... He's still alive in Kaoru's, but Kaoru is trying to fix that.]